my deepest fear

my deepest fear

you know wen you get those feelings when you wake up like you know that day is gonna be good. Well for me today is one of those days, I'm busting out my emeinem playlist and hitting my notebook with writing because I think I'm getting out of my funk.

I use writing as a therapy and I haven't been able to put any creative ideas on paper for months, but my birthday is next week and I'm feeling good. I'm working on a graphic novel 

now if only I could find a good anime artist but i at least have to get my story on paper first.

 I'm sitting here in my room the sun shining through my windows and I realize that I haven't been able to write anything because I'm afraid. 

I have been so afraid to fail that I cant even sit down at my computer or to my notepad and write my feelings because I'm afraid to fail. I give up because I am afraid to fail, I don't push my self further because I'm afraid. 

 I realize now that if I don't try if I don't push myself further, if I don't make myself better the only person that I am failing is myself. 

so I will no longer allow myself to be ruled by fear fear of rejection fear of failure fear of disappointment 

because fear is the only thing that will bring me down I will be fearless and I will do what I love 

my least favorite time of year

holiday clean up 

welcome to hell 

where we have to take every Christmas ornament off of the tree clean the bristles up from the base of it and manage to get the tree out of the house without making an even bigger mess.

steps to holiday clean up 

step 1: take all of the ornaments down at once, if you take them down at once you can put them away at once 

step 2: take the skirt from under the tree and make sure you have moved things out of the way before you shake it out.

step 3: get three plastic bags or more if your tree is bigger and carefully without pricking yourself on the spines put the tree in the bags if it does not fit then have someone you know take a chainsaw and cut it into several different parts and then you can put them in the bags.

step 4: get a brand new broom and proceed to sweep up any remains of the tree

step 5: if you have moved any furniture move it back 

step 5: get some sparkling grape juice sit down and read or watch spongebob 

and don't say I'm childish cause everybody watches spongebob and if you haven't and you have been living under a rock get some cable TV go to nick and watch on Saturday because thats when they marathon.

HAPPY NEW YEAR

HAPPY NEW YEAR

hey its finally over the chaotic year that was 2016 is finally over. 

tis year was not only sad but terrifying Donald Trump was elected as president, prince died, princess lea died and honestly things got really out of hand 

but 2017 will be better it has to be because the rainbow comes after the storm.

so I declare that this day will mark the start of a new era for all of us an era of love and peace despite the pain and heartache we will perceiver and come out of the other side victorious 

“The past has no power over the present moment.” – Eckhart Tolle

so make tis year better than the last

happy new year 

boyfriends and new years

boyfriends and new years 

so its new years eve and believe it or not people still do the tradition of kissing at midnight or whatever. which means that either you made plans with your boyfriend or your frantically looking for one.

stop just stop boyfriends on new years is overrated you don't need to have a boyfriend on new years valentines day is a different story all you need for new years is some good friends and good food and a good movie maybe some tacos everything is better with tacos. 

now if you have a boyfriend or cuddle buddy or whatever spend some time with them cuddle up and chill and if  you do wanna kiss at midnight then get some but you don't need a boyfriend be spontaneous kiss a stranger or kiss a friend on the cheek kiss your mom on the cheek be with family its about the company not the foreplay 

now I would like to give a shout out to my great grandmother who as of today is 101 I love you very much and have a good day 

to my readers don't hold a holiday to weather or not your going to kiss someone 

love u all happy new year 

the Hollydayz

the Hollydayz

ok now lets get this straight the holidays are fun don't get me wrong but there are some times where we just want to be calm and not so jolly if you know what i mean, and thats when holidays turn in to hollydayz.

Hollydayz: a daze of holiday behavior that seems over the top, or unnecessary 

and yes i made up that word 

now i have a family that dose a traditional Christmas, tree, presents dinner and everything. to be honest sometimes it gets a little over the top like the time i got supper drunk on rum balls when i had a plane to catch in the morning best sleep Ive ever had worst headache Ive ever had in my existence but hey thats a hangover for you

now there are two ways o get rid of the hollydayz 

#1 sit and sulk about it 

or 

#2 enjoy it they are your family and close friends be happy they are happy and be glad your together because believe it or not some people don't get to see their family for Christmas.

so throw on your favorite Christmas pjs grab some eggnog and sit and watch your favorite Christmas movie with your loved ones 

happy holidays!

welcome to GIRL WORLD

    welcome to GIRL WORLD 

welcome to girl world I started this blog so that i can chronicle my teenage years granted I'm almost 18 in 2 weeks I want to give advice and help other teens my age. I grew up in south side Chicago where I learned the amazing facts and advice from girls my age, my mother and her friends, my grandmother and her mother. I want to be a voice for my generation and generations to come where my daughter and her daughter can find advice on growing up if the robots haven't taken over by then. so I will start with posts everyday and go on from there adding columns and new ideas. Until then welcome to the girl world.