my deepest fear

my deepest fear

you know wen you get those feelings when you wake up like you know that day is gonna be good. Well for me today is one of those days, I'm busting out my emeinem playlist and hitting my notebook with writing because I think I'm getting out of my funk.

I use writing as a therapy and I haven't been able to put any creative ideas on paper for months, but my birthday is next week and I'm feeling good. I'm working on a graphic novel 

now if only I could find a good anime artist but i at least have to get my story on paper first.

 I'm sitting here in my room the sun shining through my windows and I realize that I haven't been able to write anything because I'm afraid. 

I have been so afraid to fail that I cant even sit down at my computer or to my notepad and write my feelings because I'm afraid to fail. I give up because I am afraid to fail, I don't push my self further because I'm afraid. 

 I realize now that if I don't try if I don't push myself further, if I don't make myself better the only person that I am failing is myself. 

so I will no longer allow myself to be ruled by fear fear of rejection fear of failure fear of disappointment 

because fear is the only thing that will bring me down I will be fearless and I will do what I love 

my least favorite time of year

holiday clean up 

welcome to hell 

where we have to take every Christmas ornament off of the tree clean the bristles up from the base of it and manage to get the tree out of the house without making an even bigger mess.

steps to holiday clean up 

step 1: take all of the ornaments down at once, if you take them down at once you can put them away at once 

step 2: take the skirt from under the tree and make sure you have moved things out of the way before you shake it out.

step 3: get three plastic bags or more if your tree is bigger and carefully without pricking yourself on the spines put the tree in the bags if it does not fit then have someone you know take a chainsaw and cut it into several different parts and then you can put them in the bags.

step 4: get a brand new broom and proceed to sweep up any remains of the tree

step 5: if you have moved any furniture move it back 

step 5: get some sparkling grape juice sit down and read or watch spongebob 

and don't say I'm childish cause everybody watches spongebob and if you haven't and you have been living under a rock get some cable TV go to nick and watch on Saturday because thats when they marathon.

HAPPY NEW YEAR

HAPPY NEW YEAR

hey its finally over the chaotic year that was 2016 is finally over. 

tis year was not only sad but terrifying Donald Trump was elected as president, prince died, princess lea died and honestly things got really out of hand 

but 2017 will be better it has to be because the rainbow comes after the storm.

so I declare that this day will mark the start of a new era for all of us an era of love and peace despite the pain and heartache we will perceiver and come out of the other side victorious 

“The past has no power over the present moment.” – Eckhart Tolle

so make tis year better than the last

happy new year